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Finding my Self-Respect, and going from there.....
I think EVERY girl has to go through that ONE relationship were they get SO burned...
SO burned, that they have to learn how to pick themselves up.
Realise what they are capable of doing on their own. (As in ....grow some balls! heehee!)
It dosen't have to be as dramatic as my story, but there has to be a moment where you realise
the house with the picked fence dosen't just come to you.
You have to be careful and think in who you choose.
Not just fall in love, because that is what happens if it's "meant to be".
The healthiest relationships have the knowledge of balancing each other out.
That relationship is a far faaaaar away dream for me now.
It all comes back when girls ask me for advice.
I used to hear who he was with during times I thought he loved me.
Stuff like that really warped my memories and it made me wonder what was genuine? what was not?!
I really loved this guy!
I'll probably never know the whole truth, but it sucked to find pieces along the way.
There's nothing I could do with information like that.
Just feel my stomach turn over to think how I was taken for a fool.
It's been years now and things were patched up.
It's too bad he saw me fall in downspiral along with him.
Omg, the stupid crazy-in-love things I did.
All I can say is he's happy for me and said I deserved all the good things I have now.
We're veeeeery different now anyways. I'm a different person as a whole.
That "Evelyn" is not....me.
I only put this chapter in, because I know there are girlies out there who are in the same situation
and can see my example of how the grass IS greener if you're in an abusive/unhealthy relationship.
It wont ever completely go away, because it DOES make a mark on your heart.
The easiest thing you can do is see any of those bad characteristics in a guy you meet........
and RUN the other way! heehee!
DON'T make the same mistake twice when it comes to love.
DON'T go for the guy who steals your personality and lets you down.
I know in my case....and really...in most happy or un-happy I run into to...
A person has this 'perception' of what they think they deserve or think they should or MUST end up with.
But....its not what you want.......it's what you NEED!
Think with your brain and find somebody who compliments your personality and lifestyle.
Your heart will follow into safe hands.
I think EVERY girl has to go through that ONE relationship were they get SO burned...
SO burned, that they have to learn how to pick themselves up.
Realise what they are capable of doing on their own. (As in ....grow some balls! heehee!)
It dosen't have to be as dramatic as my story, but there has to be a moment where you realise
the house with the picked fence dosen't just come to you.
You have to be careful and think in who you choose.
Not just fall in love, because that is what happens if it's "meant to be".
The healthiest relationships have the knowledge of balancing each other out.
That relationship is a far faaaaar away dream for me now.
It all comes back when girls ask me for advice.
I used to hear who he was with during times I thought he loved me.
Stuff like that really warped my memories and it made me wonder what was genuine? what was not?!
I really loved this guy!
I'll probably never know the whole truth, but it sucked to find pieces along the way.
There's nothing I could do with information like that.
Just feel my stomach turn over to think how I was taken for a fool.
It's been years now and things were patched up.
It's too bad he saw me fall in downspiral along with him.
Omg, the stupid crazy-in-love things I did.
All I can say is he's happy for me and said I deserved all the good things I have now.
We're veeeeery different now anyways. I'm a different person as a whole.
That "Evelyn" is not....me.
I only put this chapter in, because I know there are girlies out there who are in the same situation
and can see my example of how the grass IS greener if you're in an abusive/unhealthy relationship.
It wont ever completely go away, because it DOES make a mark on your heart.
The easiest thing you can do is see any of those bad characteristics in a guy you meet........
and RUN the other way! heehee!
DON'T make the same mistake twice when it comes to love.
DON'T go for the guy who steals your personality and lets you down.
I know in my case....and really...in most happy or un-happy I run into to...
A person has this 'perception' of what they think they deserve or think they should or MUST end up with.
But....its not what you want.......it's what you NEED!
Think with your brain and find somebody who compliments your personality and lifestyle.
Your heart will follow into safe hands.
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