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"The One" with REAL morals & dreams.... 1998: I met David in Art school. Totally my friend. If somebody told me I was sitting across laughing with my future husband..... I would have told them they were out of their minds and that he was not my type. He was...and still is totally REAL! I'd never met anybody who didn't like being fake...who didn't like humoring people. He was always all smiles with this loud laugh, and was just A LOT of fun. Wasn't the picture-perfect-50's-guy I'd go out with. He was into hip-hop and metal....not for me right?! haha! BUT he had soooooo many good qualities. His pride in his word. The way he thought positive in a logical way. His belief in doing the right thing for a good quality of life really impressed me. Just a genuine guy...I couldn't get passed it. We went out and all, but I kept going back and forth from "my dream" who I wanted to end up with.... and David, who I thought of "The kind of guy girls wanna settle down with". At some some point I didn't want either! Girlie needed some time for herself! I don't regret that part of my life, because a girl really really NEEDS to see how in control they are! heehee! I had a blast living for everything I wanted to do. Hadn't done that in sooooo long! BUT My so-called "dream" would call me up drunk from nights of his partying and just say theeee worst things, and call me thee worst names. I still don't know why he thought he had the right to put me down like that. He didnt even WANT to be with me, ya know?! He could sleep around... but he didnt like the thought of me and guy who-actually-wanted-to-hang-out-with-me?! Backwards....I know, but that's an abusive relationship! Trying to have control for nooooo good reason. David on the other hand.... would just call me up to let me know if I got too drunk, I could page him for a ride. He'd just say "Have fun!" That kind of trust is just sooo honest.....even my best friends noticed it. I sadly realised my dreams were all in my head, and learned that falling in love was something that just happens. Not something you have to work SOOOO hard at! The end of 2001-begining of 2002* I saw what was out there, but even I knew David and I were the best match. I could not ignore it. Along with my family and friends. I was proud to be his girl, and realised I was "taken" but felt very free! Guess thats what you get with trust right? heehee! My world befan to be ALL about David. He told me "If he dosen't have pride in you, then he's not a real man." It took me a while to "get it" but I have realised that... its easy to cheat, easy to be mean, and its easy to lie to the one you love. It takes balls to say, "This is my gem, and I'll do anything in the world to keep both of us happy." It's more work, but anything worth having takes hard work right?! Same with love. He even picked out a song for us..... Which was a lil wish I aaaaalways wanted in my life-time: "Thank You" - Dido David challenges me in all the right ways. It's a waste when I see girls being challenged in trying to keep a guy's eyes from wandering, as they put them down... THATS something to be proud of?!!!! I've been there, and its a toooootal waste. The guy that loves you, challenges you to be a better YOU! He challenged my beliefs to not just talk, but BE everything I believe in. That's my capricorn! heehee! He's not a people pleaser, so it was a whole diffrent world of honesty ruling his life. I went from one extreme to the other! |
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